What if the way back isn't through more trying— but through feeling?
Your body stopped being home. It became something to manage, optimize, perform.
O-Circle LIVE
$125 general • $99 early bird
4 hours. In person. 20 Participants
pleasure as a portal
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You're anxious, burned out, dysregulated—your nervous system stuck in survival mode. You've lost your center. You organize around everyone else's needs, timelines, approval.
Your body isn't home. It's something you manage from the outside instead of live in from within. This isn't failure. This is what happens when the world teaches bodies like yours to perform instead of feel.
Masculine rhythms built the world: linear timelines, dopamine-driven, transcending instead of inhabiting. Your cycles were inconvenient. Your pain was too much. Your pleasure was threatening.
So you dimmed it. Not consciously—but
your nervous system learned: feeling yourself fully = danger.
You've tried therapy, meditation apps, breathwork routines, optimization strategies. They help a little. But they don't bring you home. Because they don't speak the language your nervous system actually understand.
Your nervous system doesn't speak English.
It speaks sensation, rhythm, safety signals.
THAT LANGUAGE IS PLEASURE
Not as reward.
As signal. As the way your body tells you: this is coherent, this is me, this is home.
The SHift
When pleasure becomes your nervous system's primary feedback
Your body becomes home, not a problem to solve
You return to your center
You radiate FROM yourself instead of orbiting others
Aliveness becomes sustainable, not episodic
What will happen?
Framework (75 min)
The architecture that makes the portal possible.
The Mechanics (45 min)
I’ll demonstrate what you'll do. Vagus activation. Pelvic engagement. Breath patterns. Sound. Movement.
The Portal (90 min)
Your nervous system does the learning.
Integration + Research (30 min)
We witness what moved through the room. Individual experience becomes collective intelligence.
Most psychology asks: were you held safely?
Deeper question: Were you authorized to be a source?
When your knowing couldn't be trusted, when your pleasure needed permission, when your reality required external validation—you were displaced from your center.
You learned to orbit other people's approval, needs, versions of reality.
The work is reclaiming your position as origin point.
Orbiting → radiating
Referencing outward → trusting inward
Performing worthiness → occupying sovereignty
This is nervous system architecture, not positive thinking.
How Your Body Actually Regulates
Your Rhythm
The whole is greater than the sum of the parts
Why do you keep orbiting instead of radiating
Pleasure - Technology
Your body cannot experience pleasure unless it feels safe. Pleasure is both signal and result of safety.When pleasure is self-authorized (not requiring permission):
Pleasure → safety registered → more capacity → deeper self-trust → more safety → more pleasure
Self-reinforcing neuroloop. But when we are so entranched into “deserving” perfoming nad earning pleasure requires permission, the loop breaks. Your system encodes: following my own signals = danger.
This is why you can't "just relax." Your nervous system is protecting you from yourself
Rhythm is how you access pleasure—erotic and transcendent.
Authorizing yourself to move with your own rhythm (not override it) is centrality embodied.
Female bodies operate on hormonal rhythm—the menstrual cycle, not the 24-hour cycle the world is built around.
Your cycle creates windows: phases when your nervous system is more plastic, more receptive, more capable of trance.
Your sensitivity isn't dysfunction. It's precision.
The issue: The world is organized around masculine 24-hour rhythm. You were trained to override your own.
Cyclical Intelligence
Collective Coherence
This is what happens at mass events. Mass meditations. Worship. Protests. Totalitarian rallies.
Nervous systems synchronize—HRV coupling, breath entrainment, phenomenological convergence.
It can create transcendence. Or terror.
In pleasure-based collective practices: emergent coherence—group-level nervous system regulation that exceeds individual capacity.
The difference: You maintain your center while synchronizing. Coordinated sovereignty, not fusion.
Framework
What you will Learn.
Why You keep Orbiting
Pleasure as Technology:
Cyclical Intelligance
Collective Coherence
Centrality
The Portal
Safety Signaling & Pelvic Awareness
integration + Sharing . Optional Research
90 minutes where your nervous system does the learning.
Five movement phases training regulation, capacity, and surrender. Fully clothed. No touching. You control your participation. Trauma-informed. Optional at every stage.
Standing sequence: Bilateral movements, Vagus nerve exersises, neck, eye movemtns yin massage, standing pelvic tilts and rotations
What you're training: The capacity to stay present without hypervigilance. building boundaries for energetic work to relax into.
Arousal Building & Pelvic Activation
Arousal Building & Pelvic Activation
Floor sequences. Bridge holds with pelvic engagement. Pelvic bone bouncing rhythmically. Spinal undulations. Breath holds at peak inhale—building charge. Sound on exhale—releasing what's ready.
What you're training: Capacity to hold more aliveness without collapse. Surrender without loss of center.
Guided meditation, downregulating breath, bilaterial bodyscanning. Then sharing what has moved through.
We don't just activate—we complete the cycle.
Slow, grounding breath. Body scan—noticing what's different. Gentle movement. Child's pose, stillness. Guided return to the room.
What you're training: The capacity to move from intensity back intentionally, to track and verbalize the shifts. With each time resetign your baseline to being able to have more capcity, more understanding, more aliveness.
Kneeling/seated sequence: seated to kneeling Pelvic tilts, circles, figure-8s. Hip shaking, rocking, intimate fitness, pelvic squeeze- release Breath moving through pelvis.
What you're training: Interoceptive awareness. The ability to feel what most women can't locate.
PLEASURE IS TECHNOLOGY. WE'RE PROVING IT.
Climate crisis. AI acceleration. Complexity outpacing human capacity. When you regulate, you prove embodied intelligence works.
You generate the data that changes what's possible.
We can send people to space, but 58% of women have faked an orgasm.
We've mapped the cosmos. Sequenced DNA. Built AI.
But we still don't know how female pleasure actually works—how it regulates, heals, synchronizes nervous systems.
Not because it's unknowable.
Because it's so understudied.
We need nervous systems that:
Regulate under real pressure
Stay present through uncertainty
Don't collapse into collective panic
Your pleasure isn't only self-care.
It's evolutionary infrastructure.
O-Circle isn't just practice. It's Research
Optional but encouraged—bring your wearable (oura Ring, apple watch, etc) + participate in surveys.
We're measuring:
How arousal states shift regulation
Nervous system coupling between participants
How long coherence lasts (24-72 hours post)
Your experience becomes evidence.
Why this matters now?
What you will Leave with
Practices — breath, pelvic awareness, dearmoring, sound. Tools you can use the next morning.
Understanding — how your nervous system works. What blocks you. How to return to your center when you lose it.
Evidence — you've felt coherent states in your body. You know what regulation actually feels like now. Not as concept. As memory.
Who is this for?
Some O-Circle Live events are women-only spaces. These create specific safety containers for those who need it.
Others welcome all genders. These allow partners to learn together and create different kinds of coherence.
WOmen
Men + Partners
You want to support her but don't know how. You'll learn what her body actually needs. Why arousal isn't linear. How to hold space without fixing or performing. You can witness or participate.
NOT FOR YOU IF: You want quick fixes. You're uncomfortable with group pleasure work. You need to be told what to want.
You've been performing pleasure instead of feeling it. Forcing masculine timelines onto a cyclical body. You learned your aliveness was too much—so you dimmed it. Your body learned: pleasure = danger.
What if your power wasn't the problem—the system was?
You sense: Your body knows something you've forgotten. Pleasure is your power. Your cycle is intelligence. You're ready to come home.
non-binary
You're reclaiming a body never reflected back accurately. This isn't about femininity—it's nervous system regulation through pleasure, rhythm, coherence. Your body's wisdom is welcome here.
Why This Works?
I'm not teaching theory. I'm sharing what rebuilt me.
I was never given a center to begin with. Generations of unmetabolized trauma—Holocaust survival, war, poverty, suicide—compressed into blame, shame, and desperate attempts to control what to think, feel, and do. Enmeshed people orbiting a shared void of pain and fear. I learned early that the world was not safe and that I was not the authority on my own experience.
Right before immigrating, a car crash left me hospitalized for a month in Ukraine—nerve damage, a body that had become a threat. I arrived in the US still broken. Within my first year, my stepfather took his own life. I studied biology and art at UW—already obsessed with how the body encodes experience. But the real laboratory was always my own nervous system..
And then came infidelity, a miscarriage, a month of bleeding—the particular devastation of discovering that someone who can worship you can also betray you, devalue you, and quickly turn indifferent. Had I imagined the depth of it? Had I misread presence as love? It shattered not just my heart but my ability to trust my own perception. It made me question my own sense of reality.
Years later, a hive of wasps attacked me on his birthday—anaphylactic shock, minutes from death. Nine months later he wrote. Spiritual platitudes. No mention that I had almost died.
Intellectually I wanted to move on. To love again. But my body had other plans. Five years of celibacy, unable to let anyone in. Then an 8-year relationship where I was present, doing the relational healing work, teaching tantra—feeling the full expression almost within reach and perpetually slipping away.
Finding sensation was finding origin.
The framework came later. The living came first.
Six months apprenticing with a shaman in Ecuador. 400 pages—dreaming, moving, pleasuring myself back into my own body. What began as grief slowly became research. I was mapping a nervous system that had never felt at home in itself.
What I found: I had never had a center. Not a damaged one—an absent one.
Pleasure was what rebuilt it. Learning to feel pleasure as self-sourced—not performed, not offered to someone else's gaze—was learning to trust myself for the first time.
Frequently Asked Questions
Still have questions? Take a look at the FAQ or reach out anytime. If you’re feeling ready, go ahead and apply.
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No. Fully clothed. No contact between participants.
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This is trauma-informed. Everything optional. Many survivors report this as the first space their nervous system felt safe enough to explore pleasure.
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It could be. We normalize that. The breakthroughs usually come AFTER you let yourself be uncomfortable.
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Perfect. That's why you're here. This isn't about achieving anything—it's about learning what your body needs and what's been in the way.
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That's data. We work with whatever arises. Numbness tells us something about your nervous system state.
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Some circles are women-only; some are open to all genders. Non-binary folks and partners often attend and report profound shifts. Check individual event listings for gender composition..
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No. Surveys and biometric tracking are completely optional. You can attend and practice without contributing data. But if you're willing, your experience helps pioneer an unstudied field.
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Come anyway if you are capable. Sometimes menstruation makes the work more potent.
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Water, comfortable clothing you can move in, and if you want to participate in biometric tracking: your Oura Ring, Apple Watch, or other wearable device.
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Some parts of the movemetn sequence in portal experince do require storng thignts and sertain exercies as breaht of fire coudl be streneus however but the way i built a sequecne is to altranate motion with rest and all of the exersies are optional. There are plentry of value from teh lecture and and deminstration.